I know these are my words but they come from the light you keep untamed…

No one will ever understand what you are to me and that’s quite okay because I am the only one that needs to understand it…
I’ve spent my life feeling trapped inside a world that no one could ever see
But in a single look I knew you were already there with me

How could I not hold someone up so high that holds me above the waters that have always overflowed me Shows me how bright I shine even if he wishes he could be the only one to see the shinning it displays, but when a light shines it shines on everything brightening up all that surrounds

His darkness isn’t there to confine me or control, but to protect and keep my light warm

He is my darkest knight for a reason

And I am his shinning light just the same

Our balance is what keeps us so close

Held together in our picture frame

Every moment we have lived led us up to this

This undeparting kiss

The everlasting wish

A second away and we begin to miss

Miss what we create when our souls are collided

Nothing can fight it

What we hold is for us to experience

And continue to fly within our ambient flight

I only hope to somehow at least show him what he means to me

With every breath how I feel so close and free

Even when he has to go

I know I am never alone

I feel him in everything

The stars are our home

This planet is just our vacation

Where we chose to play

To explore and see how much we could radiate

Radiate what everyone else tries to erase

And wonders why they are always on an endless race

Trying to find it

Can’t they just see its not a single place

Its to be free, its to roam

Its to breathe, its to bleed

Its to make who you want to be

Its to dream like the waves in the sea

Endless…

But mostly its to feel what you see…

Boundless…

And let it become a part of everything

It took me this long to finally feel what a breath felt like

And within a single breath there is love

All the peace we could summon from above

All it takes for the roots that grow below

For what is seen is only the beginning of the show

He gave me what I never thought could be felt

A place I can stand upon and know I am strong

A vision I can conjure up within and know I am exactly where I belong

A voice that is no longer weak when I sing my song

And a heart that knows what I feel is never wrong

For I am a warrior and this light will always glow

And this love we found it will eternally grow

I cant let disaster take over...

 

I am trying so hard to realize what I do to myself when I cant let go of this haunting feeling... My chilling darkness seeps in and keeps me chained from everything I thought to be true. I get twisted in my thoughts and they spread over my surface and all I can see is blue... As beautiful as it can feel when I am chilled I lose sight of all the beauty too. The disaster takes over and I become the crashing wave that drowns me in all that I feel! I fear my own darkness more than I fear anyone else's for mine is the only one that can destroy me. If only I can find that sweet touch of warmth from the pain I rise upon myself so I know its okay to breathe it in. If I can find it in myself to not tear away and distance myself from all I am because hiding in a cave is never going to lead me to where I begin. My darkness keeps me hidden from even the only one that could understand it but how do you let someone into a place that has been so cold and empty for so long and only heard by yourself. How do you let go of the feelings of abandonment that has parted good and bad so far from the meeting line... This cold line that stretches the endless distances of warmth... A distance that's not so far in your mind but when I search for it outside it seems like eternal fears... and just when I thought nothing else could bring me to tears, my mind finds a place more alone by the years! I get lost but I don't know whether to embrace it or battle what is trying to come near... Where to go, where to steer? Its not fair to hand you all my weight too when each one of us have a battle within to break through. I just want to stop speaking to a reflection that just leaves me feeling the rejection. I want the storm to come for I long for when I can stand in the rain where somehow I don't feel the pain. The storm feels it for me, I just have to survive what I sent out to claim!
But I know its just my haunting mind that gets me every time.... Let it rain

My mind is vibrating for I must let it out...

This darkness he holds on to, I see so much light in but my understanding of this universe is beyond words that can explain my meanings of light and dark. To me its not color, it just "is" and it is pure beauty. I have never felt a darkness like his though. So many others have left me cold and distant but his, keeps me warm and connected. The divine feels bound to me and I believe in our reality and know our world is real. We all long for a way of life and we all can create our own way of life right here. I see the enormous power we have, even as such beings. We feel we are confined to here but its beauty we must find here. Its a world worth living in we must find here. Its the nature we must come home to. It the understanding that no matter how far we feel from someone we are all united in every way. Then you begin to wonder, what is fear? Fear is nothing when we have each other and when we see we are all apart of the divine. Connected by the webs of the universe and our higher consciousness. How can we so easily forget something so true to us? Something many of us have felt in life, oneness... The pure reality that the world we see continues to break down before us because logic no longer works here. It never did... We watch it crumble before our eyes to show us that our hearts, spirits and souls are what works. We see the foundation of natural laws of nature change before our eyes and think this is not possible but we sit at a screen typing our feelings to share with others as a united community. We reach out in so many ways. And so many years ago we couldn't fathom where this world has lead us. We wonder in this dream land and wake up to the world we create everyday. What we need and want we manifest in one way or another if we want it bad enough. This is how I know when I speak of the world I walk upon it is not the same as everyone else's for I only let in the beauty and I see it in everything. To refuse the ugliness isn't being naïve it is being true to my world and my reality. To my spirit, to my soul, to my journey... I acknowledge now that I am the answer to my life and I will never stop shinning. I have watched the way we all effect one another and how we can all work with the light. And if you haven't found it yet I will shine for you till you do...

I know I'm jumping around a lot but I write where my mind wonders... nothing is ever certain, it is just thoughts and I explore them to every angle I can...

We walk on this world that we all share with these combined realities... Its such a blend that sometimes its hard to find your own when you get caught in someone else's world. We observe and channel energy without even realizing it. We make someone else feel sad or happy without knowing it. Even though we all have our own realities, within this plane(dimension) we are still in this reality together. Now how do I truly connect only with what I want in my reality? How do I continue my journey through the higher vibrations without failing off the grid and losing connections with the ones that just don't understand my concepts. I am in no way saying I want someone or anyone to believe what I feel or see but to just acknowledge that its my world and just have an open mind to universe and the divinities that break through our shells everyday... I can say though in my reality everyone would just except what is and be peaceful and free and find their own world or dimension to create as their own... Are you awake yet?

Embrace who you are right now in this moment...

Don't let who you were before become a burden on what you are now. Your focus should be on the "you" as of right now. Even the future "you" needs to be left alone, for you are creating and evolving yourself with every second...

The light that I have inside me, I know I created but when you find beings that open your world up you find a piece of them in it too. So many times in life I felt pulls of emotions from others and emotions I didn't want to feel but they soaked into me so easy leaving me to feel dark and heavy. I knew my light was always there but it took to find someone who finally seen it instead of trying to steal it. Who just wanted to feel it and be apart of it, not darken me. For even within my twisted mind I am still a shinning light of star dust.

The negativity that is found all around us is for us to grow from and master the way of rising above what used to bother us yesterday. We will continue to face the dramas of life, for so many feed off ones that emotionally invest their time and energy to try to either help and normally get hurt or the ones that just make it worse. As I continue to understand what I have let in my life so many times I finally see its my light that can change the way I think. My lightness for what surrounds me is how I can flow and always feel what resonates within myself. I have let so many pull me adrift and I do not blame anyone else but me. Most of those beings don't even know that they do it but its how they survive.

I am love and I only live and thrive off of love... Anger, drama, and worries bring us possibilities but only in such ways for us to evolve ourselves and move past to greater understandings. We all start somewhere and ascending to higher vibrations take time. I have noticed mine weakens when I let my problems control how I react to a situation. Its as small as a conversation with a friend or how you take on your child getting upset. You can even feel in yourself when you know you could have reacted much better but you let something else get the best of you. You almost feel drained from the situation. Just a few short months ago I used to let an old situation ruin my whole day and I found myself crying over things that I couldn't change because it was the past. I was forgetting that what I have right now in these moments is what I must cherish for its all I have... Its all any of us have. We can look at the memories and we can plan the future but what we hold in our hands is "now".

~Divine Stardust~

We stand together unwavering!

Where would you go for love? What would you do?


Well….

I would go to the darkest place

I would take on the coldest face

The whole world I would erase

Because I know we could make this a much more glorious space

I would dive into the deepest sea

And meet him at the bottom so we could be free

I would jump into the sky

Till I was flying higher than any other soul would go for love

I know it needs no proof to be real

But I would do it all just because he deserve to forever feel

The fall… how with him, I will never hit the ground

I know if I wanted I could land safely and sound

But flowing through his air is beyond any creation ever found

Love has slowly slipped from the grasp of this world

But I know that we will always be playing within our vortex…

No matter what comes it will only strengthen our reflex

Love and peace are all I am made of

Challenge it, for my love stops no where

But to challenge, you wont just get me

Love I am, but I stand with my darkest knight

That will take on the fight

Worry for yourselves, not for thee

For I am safe in those arms

The rest will deal with the air that moves the sea

He is the protector of this family

We stand together unwavering ^,..,^

Sparkling Stardust...

Branded by a light

A symbol that had never found its place till this moment

A meaning that could save this whole place

A memory no soul could ever erase

Once you find out your standing outside the race

And there is not a single thing that could get you to join the chase

They always listen to a so called informant

Oh how they don’t see how its all within a simple case

What is inside is so radiant

Such an ambient sight

But so many cant leave behind the face

A face is just a cover

But if you don’t look to the soul

How will you ever recognize your lover

We live in a world we made so cold

But the light has come to warm us

Always scared of an ending

But we find ourselves in a rush

Expand your findings

And you will discover were only a sprinkle of sparkling stardust

Untold...

I let you take what I was away for so long
But I know its my fault for not seeing what I did wrong

I cant regret a thing though because I know exactly where I belong
And I know now that I cant save you
I just have to stand tall,
Stand strong
And keep singing my song

Maybe one day you will realize who I was all along
Maybe one day you will see clearly and stop living in the chaos
And all the fog
For I never thought I would lose such a close friend, the one I called my sister of my soul
It was a choice I made alone
And a choice that in the end I hope helps you grow
I want to see you shine bright on your own stage
Release every bit of your rage

Nothing I do is to cause pain
For I wanted to be there through the thickest rain
I just cant keep playing this game
I know its all gone now
And the meaning will never be the same
But I leave you with this
Every moment I shall miss
And if I had just one wish
I would of tried harder to save myself first
Then maybe you wouldn't feel like your always living within a curse

Even though Im far away
In some way Im always there
You don't have to understand why I didn't stay
All you need to know is everyday is yours and only you can be the one to begin
To begin to be your own best friend
For a soul so wounded as yours that's the only way to mend...
And you can say all you want that your okay
But yours words speak volume
And they have great power so don't use them to be sour
Use them to prosper and flower

This is your day, now live it with greatness and only your way...

Let the odds be forever in your favor

Life of a Star

I believe I may add more or change this one up but had to share...


Our love is like the life of a nebula

Everlasting

Ever-changing

So many colors evolving

But so many believe that it ends

Creating a supernova that can never mend

For its pressure turns to a black hole

A black hole of destruction

But if you could see through to the other side…

Its shining through the darkness it is

The darkness it has always been

And the brightness that never ends

Where does all the color go

How else can it be explained

Nothing could ever take this place

For its ours

So electric, no need for a race

Were winning at our own pace

In this luminous night

This endless sight

There is no way for us to be unknown

The charge is like a gravitational pull

No longer wrong or right

There is no place we haven’t been shown

But so much left to roam

Through this timeless home

 

What if we just love

What if love didn't need hate for balance...
What if love is the one place we could all be saved...
What if all those other feelings would just go away...

There is this perception that everything needs balance but love is just too beautiful to have hate along its side. I can even understand that the hard days make the good day even better and make you more thankful for when you feel wonderful, but what if that great feeling could just keep growing. We always experience these ups and downs in life but wouldn't it be wonderful to just keep going up... always ascending forever. We have learned by now in our lives what pain, hate, guilt, and sorrow feel like, so why would we ever allow ourselves to feel that again or let another feel it? 

I wish for only peace, love and pure harmony in life. I have excepted what hurts in this world and I want to let it all go so love can fill me up.
Its time to just love...

4th of July

 

This is a day that we all seem to just celebrate America but I celebrate life in general everyday. If I could watch a performance of fireworks by the lake every night I would cherish it just the same, just as I cherish every moment I get to wander this land. A land that still has every beauty and every need we could want right in nature but we seek it else where. We seek to keep building and making materials we don't need. Some say how great this world is with all the inventions and how far we have come. What have we come to? We have only split away from who we all naturally are and have only created a world harder to live in, not easier. Yes, it has become the way of life but it shouldn't be the only way of life. I sit on a computer writing out my feelings because this is how this world has come to know people and I just love to write. But if this technology had never existed I wouldn't care, I would express my love for words in my other ways. I know nothing can be done about yesterday but I will continue to be the change I want to see in the world and hope for a future where I don't have to be heard on a screen. I cant say I am not thankful for the things I am provided but I will always wonder how different the world can be until I will continue to bring my dreams to reality!

The new world continues to unfold...

It's amazing what a dream holds

And how something that may scare us at first actually has such remarkable possibilities lying within it... How I know now that this world is crumbling before my feet not because it is ending but because a wonderful new world is ready to shine... Where we find that everything we ever dreamed of is so close and has always been in the palm of our hands... But if we run from the fear of not knowing what to do or fear of the unknown then we shall always be restricted to the world that we don't want... For its amazing to enjoy the view but I want to be apart of making it too

When I saw you I fell in love, and you smiled because you knew... William Shakespeare

Somehow I am no longer afraid...
no longer afraid to be free
no longer afraid to let the world see
how beautiful love can really be
everyone says, "you took my breath away"
but I say, "now I can finally breathe"
finally this world found my dream
I can stand out on my balcony
and find where the water began to stream
and enjoy the view of the enormous sea
no longer wondering when I will find my next scream of pain
for I found you and we can find the peace in the pouring rain
I know that through it all, you see me
and we have found our eternity

Welcome to a brand new world...

... Where peace doesnt feel so rare... Where people dont just look and stare... They join with the universe as one to feel an ultimate connection. Even just to find that in one person in your life is beautiful.
So many live in impressionment within their own minds not realizing that their minds is where it all begins and how beauty is created. A single thought strikes the whole universe not just yourself. To better the world, better your self... To better yourself better the world. They come hand in hand... What you seek will always find you and what you put out upon the world will come back. So think about what it is your mind is filled with and the interactions you have on a daily basis.

Do you hurt the ones who care the most or maybe you talk behind others backs and think there is no effect. Every second counts so use it with pure love not hatred. I know its easy to fall out of the vortex of love with so much that surrounds us in this world but love is the only thing that brings everything together. But I ask why is it so easy for someone to hurt a person instead of trying to understand them? Why is it so hard to step in anothers shoes just to hear what one is trying to express? Why cant we show another what the world looks like through our eyes? So many questions and a journey it has been and always will be to find those unanswered questions.

I have always tried to live my life as an understanding spirit. I try my best not to judge anyones life for I am not in their situation and as much as we all want to understand one another, do we really? Or is our understanding of another only still our version of understanding?

I know that I live in a world filled with many misunderstandings but I choose a brand new world where I will love fully and unconditionally. Now this does not mean I will allow anything into my life but my world will be positive because that is what I choose to be. I know this will not end all the pain I have found or stop it from coming into my life but I will have a deeper understand of the pain and know that no matter the amount of it, it has come my way for a reason. As a lesson... And I will be strong and stand in my warrior pose knowing I can conquer anything for I am everything...